who knew one week could go by so fast and so slow at the same time. this is the first time nic has been away for so long (he’s gone camping before for 4 days, but that was for fun). to say i’ve been on edge and freaking cranky today would be an understatement. i’m afraid i might break several teeth due to clenching and grinding them so much today. i’ve been so anxious for nic to get home. i’ve missed him so much!
i was doing okay sleeping by myself for the whole week, until really early this morning, i was having a bad dream that me and another lady were almost kidnapped. but i saved our lives by being obnoxious to the two guys that were trying to take us. they didn’t want to have to deal with me so they left us alone. i woke up from that dream and felt like something was horribly wrong. like someone might be in our house. or at least would be. i couldn’t fall asleep. so finally after shuffling several times, i grabbed nic’s handgun and went through the house. nothing was out of place and there was no one there. i went back to bed and still couldn’t sleep.
i finally shut off my brain and 20 minutes later had to wake up and get ready. that could be another reason for my bad mood today.
i’ve never been so grateful for nic’s warm body sleeping next to me every night until now. knowing that he would protect me if anything happened. a mound of cold pillows just isn’t the same. as much as i wish the pillows would do the searching of the house, they just wouldn’t.
only 3 more hours and he’ll be home. holding me tight.
i love being married more than anything. people argue that getting married young makes you miss out on life opportunities. that you can’t travel as much, get good schooling, or live on your own before marriage, etc. i feel bad for the people that plan to wait until they think they’ve “mastered life” before they get married. they’re missing out on the greatest joy. i love being able to talk about goals and cheer each other on. to pray together. to learn together. to laugh uncontrollably together. to grow together.
i love that this time alone has made me appreciate and love my husband more. i’m so grateful that he is mine for eternity. and that these 7 weeks are so miniscule compared to this grand eternity that we have.
the saying is so true, “absence makes the heart grow fonder”.
my heart will be pretty dang fond of this boy in 7 weeks.